I have a ton to post about..
First off, BIG EPIC NEWS for the whole jeremy thing.
SO Friday he decided that he wanted me to be totally honest with him, just tell him what I wanted. SO since he asked for it, I told him I wanted to break up, I dont love him anymore, and that I wanted to be able to see other people. Obviously didn't go over well. But I made my point that I REALLY didn't want to be pushed into making this something its not. He knows its over, and is to some degree respecting that.( Stuff about the breakupCollapse )
I guess the good thing about all of this is I feel like I'm actually finally free now. Which is cool :P
So ya.. Otherwise, I'm just stressing out a lot over having to pay for everything. I just don't know how I'm going to be able to afford everything, and I'm so sick of having my dad pay for so much. I feel really bad. But I just can't afford everything. Bc of the AC our electric bill doubled. I know part of it is because I turn the AC up high at night because if I'm not really cold I cant sleep. So to fix that problem means i wont be able to sleep good. Also, I really need a new job, but that means that I might have to work somewhere that I dont want to work like a fast food or sit down restaurant.. I'm really not entirely just being picky, i really would suck a lot at a job like that. And I would be more miserable than I am now. Lastly, I really think that we might have to move to somewhere cheaper. The only places cheaper that will let us bring the dogs r terrible tho. They are loud and everyone I know has said they have terrible management, are crappy, and theyre usually where u see people getting robbed or attacked around here. The only other option I can think of is jeremy said that you can get a doctors order saying you need to have your dog with you for mental reasons, and if you have that apartments arent legally allowed to turn you down if you wanna bring your dog. Now I have no idea if this actually can be done or not, but if so, that would work for me and Ada. But the thing is that 1. I dont know if BOTH of us could get away with it, and 2. Ada would only be able to take one of her dogs. I dont want her to have to get rid of one of them. But if that worked out, there are a LOT of places that are a lot cheaper and are decent, but dont take dogs. I dont know.
I just wish somehting would work out well for me. I'm so sick of being broke. It makes me really pissy towards people who don't have to pay for anything and theyre parents pay for everything. I dont think they understand how much easier they have it. Of course being around college kids all the time doesnt help because like 95% of the students live that way :P