I have a ton to post about..

First off, BIG EPIC NEWS for the whole jeremy thing.

SO Friday he decided that he wanted me to be totally honest with him, just tell him what I wanted. SO since he asked for it, I told him I wanted to break up, I dont love him anymore, and that I wanted to be able to see other people. Obviously didn't go over well. But I made my point that I REALLY didn't want to be pushed into making this something its not. He knows its over, and is to some degree respecting that.

( Stuff about the breakup )
I guess the good thing about all of this is I feel like I'm actually finally free now. Which is cool :P

So ya.. Otherwise, I'm just stressing out a lot over having to pay for everything. I just don't know how I'm going to be able to afford everything, and I'm so sick of having my dad pay for so much. I feel really bad. But I just can't afford everything. Bc of the AC our electric bill doubled. I know part of it is because I turn the AC up high at night because if I'm not really cold I cant sleep. So to fix that problem means i wont be able to sleep good. Also, I really need a new job, but that means that I might have to work somewhere that I dont want to work like a fast food or sit down restaurant.. I'm really not entirely just being picky, i really would suck a lot at a job like that. And I would be more miserable than I am now. Lastly, I really think that we might have to move to somewhere cheaper. The only places cheaper that will let us bring the dogs r terrible tho. They are loud and everyone I know has said they have terrible management, are crappy, and theyre usually where u see people getting robbed or attacked around here. The only other option I can think of is jeremy said that you can get a doctors order saying you need to have your dog with you for mental reasons, and if you have that apartments arent legally allowed to turn you down if you wanna bring your dog. Now I have no idea if this actually can be done or not, but if so, that would work for me and Ada. But the thing is that 1. I dont know if BOTH of us could get away with it, and 2. Ada would only be able to take one of her dogs. I dont want her to have to get rid of one of them. But if that worked out, there are a LOT of places that are a lot cheaper and are decent, but dont take dogs. I dont know.

I just wish somehting would work out well for me. I'm so sick of being broke. It makes me really pissy towards people who don't have to pay for anything and theyre parents pay for everything. I dont think they understand how much easier they have it. Of course being around college kids all the time doesnt help because like 95% of the students live that way :P

So two things quick bc my computer is in getting fixed and Im having internet withdrawals :P

1. FUCKING STAR TREK FTW!!!!!! U have no idea. GO SEE IT. Its SOOOOOO good :D The nerdy star trek fanatic in me just squeed my ass off lol.

2. Work= FML. Seriously. I had to work tuesday, yesterday and today. I know ppl will probably be all oooh its not that bad, but seriously? Three days in a row? I can barely walk. I feel like a zombie. I work Saturday and Sunday too. FUCK. Then school monday. So I'll be fried for school :(

I miss my computer :( It better be done tomorow bc im gonna go get online tomorow if it is bc im having both computer and icon making withdrawals. I really just wanna do something besides watch some tv & make dinner then go pass out :(

NEW mOON is going to SUCK SO BAAADDD :P

But on the bright side, Im just lmao at this point. Seriously? The cast? WTF?

1. Jane and Alec are supposed to have dark skin.. Dakota fucking Fanning and the creepy kid in just about every damn movie who are WHITE? Nope. Not so much. Lmao incredibly much at Dakota Fanning. Oh ya, because shes REALLY scary.

2. Aro and Cauis? WHAT? Arent they all supposed to be Carlilse age? Cauis not so much? Both of them LmAO, esp bc the guy playing Aro was a lycan in all the Underworld movies :P

Sorry, i just had to get that out :P That + Kristen S and Rob = massive epic fucking fail :P

THANK GOD for Taylor Lautner, the only reason I will go see it :P

Oh imbd I love you. Also awesome is that they DO have Checkov in the Star Trek movie and I was right about who played scotty. ARGGHGHGH Im so excited!!!!!

REALLY quickly, I FINALLY have puppy pics!!! Heres a link to the facebook thing

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2297383&id=21713233&l=f9a64a1f98

I require assistance!!!! PLEASE PLEASE everyone help me out :P

I have two pictures that I'm trying to decide between to submit. Let me know which one you think is better. Whichever is your fav is awesome, but I would rather know what one you think is the best done.

( Pictures )

I need to pick one by the end of the day tomorow, so if you could as soon as you can that would be so awesome, and I WILL LUVS U FOREVER.

Hmmmmm fail, massive win, and epic fail, all in like 14 hours...

So fail: I give.. I'm going to at least feel that I've tried to an extent. Im sick of feeling like this is something that I want, and its rediculous with what Ive done so far to not at least go for it. I deserve to try at least. Isn't going fantastic, since I've already done a great job of totally blowing what's been going for me thus far. If you've read my journal at all the last couple months, you probably know what Im talking about, because of my obsessive compulsive ranting. More or less I just see this as a fairly stupid and slightly masochistic plan. Im gonna force myself into a number of panic attacks. O well.

Massive win: I GOT AN INTERVIEW FOR A JOB!!! :D I think its a Web Design position at the Universitys Rec center. Which is SWEET. The funny thing is I realized after I applied for the job, that they are open like 7-5ish, which is basically the same as where I am right now. Which a tiny bit sucks, but its on campus, and they're probably use to working with college kids schedules, and i think its only 20 hrs a week, which is perfect. And if they're not open on weekends, that would suck a little, but hey, I would get my effing weekends back. I think I'm gonna keep applying everywhere, bc if theres one thing I've learned its that an interview is never a certain thing.

Massive fail: Sooo Jeremy came up last night, then after he left, like 20 mins later, he called me and said that he was driving, and a guy driving on the other side towards him had his brights on, so jeremy flashed his brights at him to get him to turn them off. According to him, the guy swerved over and pulled his car so that it was taking up the whole road sideways, so jeremy couldnt get by, and then started screaming and swearing at him, threatening him and telling him he had a gun.. So what does jeremy do? HE THREW A FUCKING WRENCH THRU THE GUYS WINDSHEILD. Yup. Then the guy took off, and he called me to tell me about it. THEN he gets pulled over by a cop. He had a taillight out, but I was terrified the guy called the cops on him. So he never called me back last night, so I sent him a text at like midnight telling him to call bc I was freaking out he was in jail. So he finally called this morning, and it was just for his taillight. So I was freaking out for nothing. GRRRRRRRRR..

Additional last min win :P They finally put up the stuff for the art exhibition I entered last year :D I have like 4 or 5 things to enter, but its $5 for 3, then another $5 for each after, so I might just pick 4. I think I"ll post pics and see if any of u guys have ideas for names, bc I got nothing. Now I gotta go buy frames.

It is entirelly neccessary for me to post really quick to get out my SUPER WAVE OF RAGING ANGER...

I HATE YOU FUCKING WARNER BROTHERS! FUCK.YOU.. PLZ DIE.

And that's why I'm a sad Harry Potter fanwhore, because I'm this upset at them for pushing HBP back til NEXT FRIGGEN JULY.

Lol...

Got some super awesome pictures for you all from my art class, w/ the whole wearable artwork stuff.. Me wearing Sam's outfit and her wearing mine, and Katherine's uber hilarious outfit bc I think it's just funny as hell. And it smelled awful for the record :P

( Me in Sam's Ode to Fastfood outfit )

( Sam in my Save the Music outfit )

( The super smelly cigarette skirt )

Makes my day :P

BTW, If the links don't work, let me know

Did a small f-list cut.. Mostly if you never post anymore I cut you. Which probably isn't anyone who's reading this.

Hey guys, I need some help :P

So I'm going to enter a charcoal drawing I did into a juried art exhibition at school, and I have to have a name for it.. I suck at naming things bigtime, and I have NO IDEA what to name it.. Suggestions PLZ???



Other pics under the cut are a lot bigger, FYI..

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My week has been made.. I got the most positive votes in the first round at an hp LIMS :DDDDD I didn't even like the icon that much :P HURRAY for happiness :)

And now to sit and be bored out of my effing mind for 3 hours! Not so hurray for photography :P

Umm ok.. I think I'm about to get REALLY pissed off..

Could you all do me a huge favor? Esp if your an icon maker, I wanna know what you guys think

So I was looking at the noms at hp_awards and I wandered across THIS nomination.. Now the Sunshine Daisies nomination, that icon looks almost EXACTLY like #62 in THIS post I did like 3 weeks before she posted that icon in her icon journal.. Does anyone else think she totally ripped me off? What do you guys think I should do?

Ick, I think I'm getting sick :S That sucks...

Wooooot moulin rouge is on TV :P There on season 2 of the OC on the soap channel too, which is sweeet :P I love season 2..

I wish jeremys dad would have me work again already... I think I might go bother him tomorow to see if i can work... I need money for the weekend after next for the highland festival and so I can get POTC 3 tickets.. I'm not sure whether I should go tomorow or just wait til next week...

Dolly got her fur cut really short yesterday :P They cut her head fur short too, which is different from usual.. shes so cute and ratlike :P Her head kinda looks like a cocker spaniel.. its kinda funny actually :P I wanna take some pics and put them up here, but i still need to find my computer :P

lol... god I love this movie :P Great, now I'm gonna wanna make moulin rouge icons :P

I also need to work so I'll stop playing that game.. It'll only take me maybe another week to finish, and I assumed it would take all summer to finish it :P but I literally have nothing else to do..

*is uber sad* Lakisha got sent home! :( I love how our local news was all about her right from the start, and they're still talking about it :P I really just wanna see people rioting in Flint.. would be pretty funny :P

At least ppl knwo something better then Eminem can come out of Michigan now :P

Damn you idol! :P

OMG!! They have up the international trailer for OoTP AND ITS SO FREAKING AWESOME... It's like half the damn movie :P I actually screamed at one point and scared the dogs :P


I think I'll go have a heart-attack now :P

It should still be on the front page of www.mugglenet.com if you wanna watch it :)

Mkay.. so I wasn't planning on posting.. I post entirelly too much, so I'm gonna start making myself post a lot less, bc usually its just useless boredom posts, but I HAVE TO FOR THIS..

OMFG HEART ATTACK THE POTC 3 TRAILER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously freaked the fuck out.. i was bouncing on the couch flailing my arms around screeching at the top of my lungs.. the dog was actually jumping on me because he thought something was wrong w/ me :P IT WAS SO FUCKING AWESOME!! I can't wait.. that was seriously the best.trailer.ever. *is waiting for someone to cap it so she can make icons like a rabid fan girl*

Edit: And it needs to be said... someone already capped the trailer... O.o... And whats more, they're really good caps! I'm kinda shocked..

*to be finished in about an hour probably*

Just need a minute to unleash my massive anger

I FUCKING HATE YOU CMU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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immensly angry... WHY?!? MAYBE BECAUSE I DROVE ALL THEF UCKING WAY UP HERE ON THE SHITTYEST ROADS EVER JUST FOR THEM TO CLOSE DOWN THE SCHOOL NOW THAT IM FUKCING UP HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I might just put my car in hte ditch on the way home simply bc im so angry...

I made the lotr elite icon comm :P lotr_elite.. Come check it out.

... CMU won the MAC championship thing... O.o.. no fucking way... :P they sucked so bad this season, and then all of a sudden they win? Whaaaaat? But ya.. WE ROCK :P I bet that was the secret motive for them cancelling school today :P let the kids celebrate, as probably everyones either still smashed or hung over so bad no one woulda come to class :P